{"id":2698,"date":"2023-01-27T10:10:01","date_gmt":"2023-01-27T13:10:01","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/?page_id=2698"},"modified":"2025-07-03T11:41:11","modified_gmt":"2025-07-03T14:41:11","slug":"mural-dos-pensamentos","status":"publish","type":"page","link":"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/en\/mural-dos-pensamentos\/","title":{"rendered":"Wall of thoughts"},"content":{"rendered":"<h4>\n\t\t\t\tWelcome to the Wall of Thoughts\n\t\t\t<\/h4>\n\t\t\t<p>Space created for you to share your thoughts without any judgment. Feel free to express what you are feeling.<\/p>\t\n\t<p>Most people prefer to share only the good thoughts and try not to expose what they are really thinking. But here you have the opportunity to express whatever you want.<\/p>\nIt is normal to associate sadness, fear and anguish as negative things. However, all our emotions have a meaning, even the unwanted ones. Nobody is happy all the time! We have good and bad moments. This is part of our lives. Your mood reflects what you are going through at the time and this can change in your day-to-day life.<br \/>\nYou may be experiencing:\n<strong>\u2022 Some frustration in your life<\/strong><br \/>\n<strong>\u2022 Psychological or physical illness <\/strong><br \/>\n<strong>\u2022 Separation<\/strong><br \/>\n<strong>\u2022 Domestic violence<\/strong><br \/>\n<strong>\u2022 Betrayal <\/strong><br \/>\n<strong>\u2022 Death of someone you love<\/strong><br \/>\n<strong>\u2022 Job loss <\/strong><br \/>\n<strong>\u2022 Problems at work <\/strong><br \/>\n<strong>\u2022 Financial difficulty <\/strong><br \/>\n<strong>\u2022 Loneliness <\/strong><br \/>\n<strong>\u2022 And etc.<\/strong>\n<p>Whatever it is, I would like you to take this time to write and express your thoughts.<\/p>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/img-mural-pensamentos.png\" alt=\"Mural dos pensamentos\" itemprop=\"image\" 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decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-chorando-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji chorando\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\t<p>I\u2019m feeling frustrated and incapable as a mother.<\/p>\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tJuly 1, 2025\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-feliz-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji feliz\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\t<p class=\"translation-block\">How have six months already gone by? It\u2019s July. My God! Time flew.\nSo much has happened. Good things, bad things. New fears discovered. New challenges to face.\nA lot of work.\nStill, I\u2019ve learned to see the positives in life, and that\u2019s why I really like trying\u2014at least\u2014to see the bright side of things. Always.\nEven though I complain sometimes. Sometimes I\u2019m annoying, I complain a lot. I know I do. I know.\nAnd that\u2019s why I like writing here. Because otherwise, no one would put up with me.\nAnd it\u2019s good to write here, because no one tells me I\u2019m complaining too much.\nThis is also a space to vent. I want to complain. But I also like to give thanks. You know?\nLife isn\u2019t perfect. Or at least, pretty much everyone has already figured that out, right?\nSo that\u2019s it. It\u2019s July. May God bless us, because the world is crazy!<\/p>\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tJune 10, 2025\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-triste-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji triste\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\t<p class=\"translation-block\">Afraid of this diagnosis. Praying a lot and trying not to focus on negative thoughts.\nAnxiety is taking over me, but everything will be fine.\nI\u2019ve already scheduled my ultrasound and I will repeat the mammogram in July.\nI believe.<\/p>\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tJune 7, 2025\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-chorando-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji chorando\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\t<p class=\"translation-block\">It\u2019s so hard to share certain things with the people we love. It\u2019s like we try to shield them from our pain, but in the end, we end up suffering alone. Especially when you don\u2019t have much family. It\u2019s really complicated.\nIf you tell the wrong person, everyone ends up knowing your private matters.\nI talked a lot to God before sharing, and it helped me a lot.\nI felt ready to tell a few people.\nWe must not lose faith.<\/p>\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tJune 6, 2025\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-triste-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji triste\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\t<p class=\"translation-block\">First mammogram. We try to prepare mentally, read and watch videos about the procedure. Everyone says something different.\nMy experience was smooth. I didn\u2019t feel extreme pain. It was fine.\nAt 40, it\u2019s necessary. Anxious to know the result.<\/p>\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tMay 14, 2025\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-feliz-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji feliz\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\t<p class=\"translation-block\">Mother\u2019s Day was special. We went to a family-style restaurant and it was wonderful.\nI\u2019m very grateful that God gave me a family that embraces me. I know I can count on them.<\/p>\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tMarch 15, 2025\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-feliz-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji feliz\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\t<p class=\"translation-block\">Even though I don\u2019t have much time, I\u2019m going back to studying and taking a course to specialize in another field.\nGod willing, I\u2019ll make it. I\u2019m writing this now so I can come back later and say that I did it and passed the test.<\/p>\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tMarch 14, 2025\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-chorando-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji chorando\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\t<p class=\"translation-block\">After more than 30 years I finally have the courage to say that I live in an abusive relationship and it\u2019s so deeply rooted in me that I don\u2019t know what to do anymore\nI take small steps to take control of my life but I have a son whose character is still forming and he loves his father\nI\u2019m the one who\u2019s seen as the sick one the depressed one since he can remember but he doesn\u2019t know why I got sick and now here I am blind and depressed seen as crazy\nAlso diagnosed with borderline disorder\nEarlier this week I had a terrible fight and I said to my husband why didn\u2019t you let me live when I was forgetting you when we had broken up and he had a bunch of girlfriends at the time\nI don\u2019t know how I\u2019d be today maybe still depressed but with so much medication to avoid suicide I think maybe not I don\u2019t know\nMy brother was arrested finally\nMy mom is devastated\nAll I know is that I don\u2019t trust any man for anything\nDisillusionment has taken over me\nMy inner child is safe the one suffering now is the woman who didn\u2019t have the courage to live alone.<\/p>\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tFebruary 20, 2025\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-bravo-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji zangado\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\t<p class=\"translation-block\">I don\u2019t know if this job I\u2019m in is right for me. I don\u2019t have a moment of peace, I\u2019m always busy.\nI\u2019ll keep doing my best, but I don\u2019t know how much longer I can take it.<\/p>\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tJanuary 1, 2025\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-festa-rosa.png\" alt=\"\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\t<p class=\"translation-block\">I want to give thanks for another year of life. I hope this year will be wonderful for me and my family.\nI will work hard and I won\u2019t lose faith.<\/p>\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tNovember 6, 2024\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-chorando-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji chorando\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\t<p>Very sad and tired.<\/p>\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tNovember 1, 2024\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-triste-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji triste\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\t<p>I got my salary today and there was nothing left. It was all used to pay the bills. I admit I was a little discouraged, but I was immediately grateful because at least I'm working and earning part of the money to pay the bills. I'm happy with the little I have, but I know I'll have to look for other options in the future!<\/p>\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tOctober 31, 2024\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-bravo-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji zangado\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\t<p>I've been really angry for a few days now with my master's advisor and a former coworker who distorted some of my statements to hurt me. I want to rub their faces in the plaster. I've had a headache for days and I've even had a crying fit.<\/p>\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tOctober 26, 2024\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-triste-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji triste\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\t<p>I don't even exist. I can't even see my life. I don't know, I just want to be happy. What is happiness? I don't know, I don't think I'll ever know.<\/p>\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tOctober 2st, 2024\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-feliz-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji feliz\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\t<p>I would just like to hug everyone who reports below. <br \/>And say that there is a way for everything.<\/p>\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tOctober 2st, 2024\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-triste-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji triste\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\t<p>Today a lot of things went through my head. It feels like I\u2019m just existing, I try to do things to take my focus off the negative thoughts but they\u2019re always there. I wish I could feel happier and less tired from the overload of everyday life, I\u2019m a mother of 3 children under 5 years old. It hasn\u2019t been easy to deal with everything alone. Fernanda the woman died, now there\u2019s only mother Fernanda.<\/p>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/bb-plugin\/cache\/foto-mural-02-10-landscape.jpeg\" alt=\"foto-mural-02-10\" itemprop=\"image\" height=\"413\" width=\"733\" title=\"foto-mural-02-10\" onerror=\"this.style.display='none'\"  \/>\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\t30 de Setembro, 2024\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-feliz-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji feliz\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\t<p>This day will be marked in my life! I can only be thankful for the wonderful things that have happened in my life! <br \/>I will finally be able to go to the doctor because my health insurance will be established by the new company. <br \/>God managed to perform a miracle in my life after 15 years of waiting. I am in heaven!!! I am so happy!!! Don't lose faith!!!!!<\/p>\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tSeptember 19th, 2024\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-chorando-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji chorando\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\tI must be a very bad person. My pedophile brother's current wife died, and my brother is getting all the love from my parents, who always knew that this woman made her own daughter file a complaint because my brother abused her grandson. I feel like the worst trash in the world. I beg my husband so much to get me out of this city. I bet that now my brother will live where I used to live, in the back of my mother's house, where we renovated. I have no value to anyone. I really deserve to die. I must have been adopted, to have such mean parents to me. He abused many women and children, including me when I was a child, and he is in a lawsuit. His wife, who supported what he did, should have died of a heart attack, it was supposed to be for me, to die without feeling pain, not this woman who had no heart. I must be really trash. I deserve to suffer in life, blind, with excruciating pain and on a lot of medication. I can't believe the nurse who took care of everyone with love was so bad. The fibromyalgia pains came back, trigger, my pedophile brother having all the support. What more, my God, do I deserve? What more? I can't even get glasses, contact lenses, or help with medication!!! I must be really bad and it's all coming back to me, it has to be.\n\ud83d\ude2d\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tSeptember 16th, 2024\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-feliz-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji feliz\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\tI was invited to attend a training session by my future boss that I had no obligation to attend because I will be hired in a few weeks. But I decided to go to show how grateful I am for the opportunity and to understand more about the company. Not everything is about money. Getting paid would be nice, but that will come in the future. The training was wonderful and I learned a lot! I can't wait to start working at this company!\ud83e\ude77\ud83e\ude77\ud83e\ude77\ud83e\ude77 God is good all the time!\u2705\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tSeptember 15th, 2024\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-feliz-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji feliz\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\tI am learning to be more grateful every day. Everything is happening in God's time. I had so many plans that didn't work out, but today I understand that God had better plans for my life! <br \/>It was months of anguish and now I will finally rest! Always with great faith, even though I suffered in the process. I believed, I trusted and now I will reap the rewards!<br \/>Thank you Lord!\ud83e\ude77\ud83e\ude77\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tSeptember 11th, 2024\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-chorando-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji chorando\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\tI'm alone. I had so many friends, I helped so many people willingly, both financially and with my nursing work. I gave injections at friends' houses, I read their test results. But now I'm useless. I'm no good to anyone. I'm a burden. I asked anyone for help of any value or to go buy medicine for me, but they turned their backs on me. My God, with all these illnesses, will I never have a moment of joy? I'm so tired of everything. I can't even get essential oils to help with the pain and anxiety. I never wanted to abuse anyone, but, gosh, asking someone to tell me about me if they can't help me, so that I can get help is an illusion. I wanted my world to be rosy, where everyone would be good and humane and there would be no evil. I'm no good for this world. This thing that the world revolves around me is a lie. I'm blind and unable to walk, I still try to help, but my friends have disappeared. Why am I so negative? Toxic? It wasn't when I did everything for everyone, without charging a cent. I bandaged, took out stitches, helped with babies, but I fell into oblivion after I stopped being useful. I don't want to live in this world of selfish people anymore, I can't stand it anymore. I'm so tired that I can't even get out of bed.\n\ud83d\ude2d\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tSeptember 11th, 2024\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-triste-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji triste\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\tI really am trash, I didn't even receive 50 cents in help, even though my colleague asked for it too. I shouldn't have asked, I wouldn't have felt worse than I do. There's no chance for me in this world anymore \ud83d\ude14\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tSeptember 10, 2024\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-feliz-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji feliz\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\tI'm so happy!!!!\ud83d\ude01 I received a message from my former boss saying that the hiring for a manager position at her company was finally approved and she will prepare the paperwork to send to me.\nI can't believe it\ud83e\ude77 I thanked God and her so much for this opportunity. I've been waiting for this position for a few months now and it will finally be mine. We can't lose faith!!!! <br \/>Eu nem estou acreditando\ud83e\ude77 Agradeci tanto a Deus e a ela por essa oportunidade. J\u00e1 estou alguns meses aguardando essa vaga e finalmente ela ser\u00e1 minha. N\u00e3o podemos perder a f\u00e9!!!!\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tSeptember 5th, 2024\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-chorando-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji chorando\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\tI'm in a depression that I can't get out. My husband, who supports me so much, helps me, takes care of me, and has a habit of keeping quiet. It's normal for him, but he knows it hurts me. We haven't spoken in 3 days. I cried the first day, so I cut myself to ease the pain, and yesterday I cut myself to feel the pain of the cut and forget a little about what he's doing to me. Christian people, by the way, any couple shouldn't go to bed angry. What if one of us dies? But he doesn't care. But around people he keeps up appearances. He should just stop talking to me since it's not even that important. But he's fake. The worst thing is seeing my son by his side. He yells at my son and I comfort him, but my son cares. He just doesn't want to get involved. I wish I could disappear, go out and walk around, but I can't, because I'm visually impaired and I have a narcissistic mother. I think he is too, because I lost my entire support network in life, I don't have any friends anymore. I'm alone, I can't even walk. I want to go to the beach and be alone, touching the sand and remembering when I wasn't dependent on anyone. He doesn't even let me have a cane. That's why I won't take out the IUD. It could take up to 20 years. I don't want another child from him. I'm also angry with his family, who support all men who do this. They lost their father so suddenly and didn't learn to be good people. The worst part is that I have no one to talk to about this. Only God and the wall of thoughts. I don't even have money. I'm a trashy person. When he's crying about his father, I'm by his side to support him. But I never get the same support.\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tSeptember 02, 2024\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-triste-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji triste\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\tI'm confused\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tAugust 23, 2024\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-triste-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji triste\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\tThe midlife crisis is real! It's very real, but not everyone goes through it. Unfortunately, I'm going through this existential crisis, and I thank God that I'm a positive person. I know it will pass and everything will be okay! I have faith that it's just a phase!!\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tAugust 09, 2024\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-triste-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji triste\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\tI still don't have any concrete answers about another job. <br \/>Sometimes I despair, but I'm trying to keep control because I have a lot of faith in God.\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tJuly 22, 2024\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-chorando-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji chorando\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\tToday my husband talked about taking me back to my mother's house. He always says this when we're arguing. We've been married for 20 years and I always put myself aside to fit into his world. Now I'm visually impaired and I feel completely alone. Even my son is on his father's side, because I've always been the depressed one and his father is his hero, even when I yell, fight or am rude to him. I'm so disappointed that it feels like my heart is going to explode. I'm tired. I don't want to go back to my toxic mother, but I also don't want to be with a husband who makes me feel like crap, the way he does. I think I'm going to live on the streets. They already call me crazy. But I'm not even good enough for that, blind as I am. How did I get to this point? I don't know. All I know is that it hurts too much and I can't stand living like this anymore.\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tJuly 14, 2024\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-feliz-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji feliz\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\tI am so grateful for everything in my life. <br \/>Being present at my niece's 15th birthday was an honor. <br \/>I'm so glad everything went well!! <br \/>God is perfect!!\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tJune 25, 2024\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-triste-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji triste\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\tI'm lost without knowing which direction to take, my head is racing, thinking several things at the same time, wanting to make decisions in life but without the courage because I know that through this decision my life will turn upside down or not, until today I haven't found it. I have a purpose in my life and I feel like this frustrates me a lot because I can't focus on anything or take anything forward.\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tJune 14, 2024\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-triste-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji triste\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\tI need to take initiative and focus on my studies. <br \/>I can't focus, there are too many things to do and I end up getting lost. <br \/>But I already put it in my planner and separated the days to study. <br \/>I have faith that it will work!\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tJune 3, 2024\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-feliz-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji feliz\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\tI need to clean up my life and exercise. <br \/>I've been standing still for a long time and I need to do something. <br \/>I'm going to find a gym! <br \/>Being healthy is important!\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tMay 18th, 2024\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-triste-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji triste\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\tIn How I could forget or know how to better deal with a trauma, something I can't forget. After my son and husband ignored us in the house for months. I can't forget everything I went through, all the suffering, the tiredness, the sleep deprivation, the lack of support, partnership, compassion. Today, 1 year later I still suffer a lot. My relationship is over, my mental health is terrible.\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tMay 16th, 2024\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-triste-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji triste\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\tI don't know what I'm doing here. Every day before I started work (I work at a car assembly plant in Japan) I questioned myself if this is what I should be doing. It's frustrating, because I have a degree, I'm a lawyer in Brazil, and here I'm an operator, I work a lot, on my feet, and I feel terrible whenever I think I wasted my studies.\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tMay 15th, 2024\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-feliz-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji feliz\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\tAnxious\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tMay 15th, 2024\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-triste-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji triste\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\tI'm feeling tired and weak\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tMay 4, 2024\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-feliz-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji feliz\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\tPassei meses turbulentos no trabalho,<br \/>mas chegou ao fim. Deus vai me honrar como sempre honrou. Agora irei aproveitar as f\u00e9rias e agradecer por esses meses de aprendizado para me preparar para as minhas pr\u00f3ximas metas.\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tMay 4, 2024\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-triste-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji triste\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\tA mil ansiedade mexendo com o corpo (herpes labial, falta de ar).<br \/>Pensando na cirurgia, na fam\u00edlia, na falta de emprego.\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tApril 30, 2024\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-chorando-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji chorando\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\tHow ungrateful human beings are. My husband said that I took care of him at the most difficult time in his life, when his father passed away. My God, I haven't slept with him since his father was hospitalized. How can a person be so cruel as to say that the person who didn't leave his side, didn't take care of him at that moment??!! I'm so tired of everything. My parents were in the trial of my brother's pedophile in his favor, being witnesses for the defense, he is not even a good son. But what everyone can only tell me is that I have to forgive the pedophile. Was this person raped? If she was, she can say that she thinks so, but if she wasn\u2019t, she just should listen to me, pretend to understand me and then say something like that. Okay, but I'm not going to say anything anymore. I'm going to close myself off completely. I have no one by my side, I can say that. Even my son just wants to do things to make his father proud. I deactivated my social networks. I'm tired. I already have enough hate. I don't need the hate of others.\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tMarch 22nd, 2023\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-feliz-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji feliz\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\tI didn't think I would really experience the crisis of my 40s!!! What a weird thing. You think that when you reach 40, your life will be stabilized. But that does not always happen. And sometimes it is stabilized, but something unexpected happens. That's life! However, we cannot lose faith in God. Everything passes and I believe this phase will pass! Thank you for everything so far!\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tMarch 17th, 2023\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-triste-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji triste\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\tI'm beating myself up, I don't know why, I just know that I do it. I already feel a lot of pain, due to fibromyalgia and osteoarthritis, but I am mutil****myself.<br \/>I'm tired of feeling pain, but why am I inflicting pain on myself? I can't say. But I feel an emptiness and an unusual sadness.\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tMarch 6th, 2023\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-triste-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji triste\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\tToday my neighbor committed suicide, I wanted to be in his place. I only live for my son. Even though I know that soon he won't even think about me anymore. Only dating. Fucking life.\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tMarch 6th, 2023\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-triste-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji triste\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\tI'm self-fl***, trying to endure this life. I never thought I would go through this.\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tMarch 1, 2024\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-triste-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji triste\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\tThe owner of this blog is right, love is very trivialized. I've done this a lot. Now, I know that love doesn't exist.\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tMarch 1, 2024\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-chorando-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji chorando\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\t\u00a0I no longer know why I live in pain because I did anything to deserve it. I gave you affection, love, in return I gained ingratitude. I don't know why but I think it's a lack of understanding. You have me as yours, the culprit and the thief, for trying to win your heart. Everyone always makes mistakes, everyone will make mistakes, I don't know why, my God, alone I live in pain. I have nothing to ask for, I also have nothing to give, that's why I'm going to leave. I'm leaving now, I'm going, away to another planet. At the speed of light or perhaps a comment. I will go lonely and cold, where death warms me, maybe this way, once and for all, I will forget you.\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tFebruary 20th, 2024\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-chorando-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji chorando\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\tIn people who are no longer alive, bills, missing some people, physical and mental health that is not very good.\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tFebruary 20th, 2024\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-triste-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji triste\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\tWhy is it so easy to throw things in my face? I'm not full of money, I say things to people to vent, there's no need to throw things in my face. But it's easy to throw it in the face of someone like me, who doesn't respond, I just keep quiet. I attempted suicide, I'm not proud of it, I'm suffering, there's no need to beat me anymore. It's difficult, but I'm going to shut up. Nobody really understands me.\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tFebruary 16, 2024\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-bravo-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji zangado\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\tIn problems that I cannot solve, ordeal, pain in physical, emotional, psychological life caused by tears.\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tFebruary 16, 2024\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-triste-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji triste\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\tThat my life is worthless.\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tFebruary 15, 2024\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-chorando-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji chorando\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\tYesterday I used a razor on my wrists. How can someone feel so much pain like that? Pain in the body, eyes, head. I can't take this life of pain anymore. And most people don't understand me. I will find a way to end my pain\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tJanuary 27, 2024\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-chorando-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji chorando\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\tToday I decided what I'm going to do with my life. But I won't leave anything in writing. I don't know how I'm going to react today. I'm in a lot of pain and I've had a succession of disappointments that, in my life, I never thought that at 42 years old I would have so much heartbreak and disappointment in my life. But I know what I'm going to do. This world has no way anymore\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tJanuary 12, 2024\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-chorando-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji chorando\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\tOne day I will disappear, have empathy and hear it in your face, you don't know the pain the other is feeling. Damn, I don't know the pain the other person is feeling, but I feel pain all the time and like hell. Now is having empathy a crime? Fuck everything. I'm exhausted from fighting for a world of generosity, where I only see selfishness. Shit life!! Holy shit, I needed to swear. No, I'm not good, I just put myself in other people's shoes, but I'm tired of that too. My life no longer makes sense. I'm a trash. A nothing. An invalid. I'll disappear.\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tJanuary 9, 2024\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-triste-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji triste\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\tI am always wrong in everything that I think, everything I say is always wrong. Nobody understands me. I didn't think I would reach 42 almost 43 yrs old so sad and incomplete. I try hard to do everything right but I can't. I'm always the wrong one in the end. I get screamed at, I cry alone. What a life my dear you chose to live. Wow, how tired of everything. Absolutely everything.\nNobody understands me. I always helped people when I could and was healthy, today I can't, I just get no as answer to my face, or even silence, they don't even give me the respect to respond. I'm not poor. I'm just paying for the answer of my choices. Fuck it.<br \/>Ningu\u00e9m me entende. Sempre ajudei as pessoas quando eu podia e tinha sa\u00fade, hoje que n\u00e3o consigo, recebo s\u00f3 n\u00e3o na minha cara, ou at\u00e9 o sil\u00eancio, nem me d\u00e3o o respeito de responder. Eu n\u00e3o sou coitada n\u00e3o. S\u00f3 t\u00f4 pagando pra vida a resposta das minhas escolhas. Foda se eu\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tDecember 29th, 2023\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-feliz-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji feliz\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\tO Ano esta terminando e eu tenho muito que agradecer a Deus por tudo, sei que nado foi como planejei mas o importante e que to aqui viva e pronta p seguir.\nQue tenhamos um 2024 muito aben\u00e7oado e pr\u00f3spero!!\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tDecember 24th, 2023\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-triste-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji triste\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\tUntil almost 3 hours ago I thought everything was fine, but I received the biggest stab (symbolic) from my husband. I'm having problems with compulsions, and at the beginning of the week he fought with me so badly and at the end he said to me with shaking hands: are you afraid of me? I replied: - yes, then he said that it was supposed to be that the day I took his money to spend on OCD (which by the way he doesn't really believe in mental illnesses), you will meet the person that only my enemies know, and he further reinforced, you can imagine anything. At the same time I thought if I have a relapse he will hit me, he put his finger in my face and shouted a lot, wow, just thinking about it makes me want to cry. The day before yesterday he apologized for the offensive words and said he wanted us to be okay. Today I gathered courage and told him: please don't say what you said to me that day, I thought you were going to hit me. He replied I wasn't going to hit you, I was going to gather your things and return you to your parents. After almost 20 years of marriage. Whole sh**, this broke my heart in a way, seriously, it hurts. I'm visually impaired and I have an abusive relationship with my mother, I can't be alone, he was going to return me, like a defective product. I need my independence back, to know how to manage on my own, even with low vision, depression and fibromyalgia. I refuse to go back to my mother's house, who defended my pedophile brother. My son saw his father fighting with me and after I came to the room he didn't even ask how I was. The fight took place in the morning and I didn't see my son that day, living in the same house. I have nobody. I've always been a good person and now that I'm not well, I might be discarded. It's fucked up.\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tDecember 22nd, 2023\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-triste-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji triste\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\tI wrote earlier about the disappointment with my husband and my son, my husband apologized for yelling at me, even though I was doing something stupid he shouldn't do that, I accepted it, but you know when the person is so hurt that they are afraid of hurting again? This is how I feel, and my son acts like nothing happened, I don't know what to think.\n\u00a0\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tDecember 22nd, 2023\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\nMeu cora\u00e7\u00e3o t\u00e1 t\u00e3o destru\u00eddo que n\u00e3o tem carinha que descreva como estou me sentindo hoje. Ontem foi um dos dias piores da minha vida. N\u00e3o d\u00e1 nem pra escrever aqui o que houve, s\u00f3 foi uma discuss\u00e3o forte, s\u00f3 que o que mais me chocou foi o meu filho de 15 anos, que eu dava minha vida por ele, simplesmente n\u00e3o falar nada, nem durante e nem depois da briga. Ele passou o dia inteiro sem nem ver se eu estava bem ou queria um copo d&#8217;\u00e1gua. Fiz merda, eu fiz, mas acho que tudo se resolve conversando civilizadamente e n\u00e3o acuando a pessoa com gritaria e se aproveitando do porte f\u00edsico pra deixar a outra pessoa com medo. Eu n\u00e3o tenho sido uma pessoa controlada com dinheiro, comida. Minha depress\u00e3o nunca esteve t\u00e3o inst\u00e1vel e eu fiz merda. Mas refor\u00e7o que brigar gritando com uma pessoa que tem tantos traumas como eu, que fui abusada durante anos e hj a minha m\u00e3e diz que n\u00e3o foi culpa dela. Eu sou assustada, e se uma pessoa fala alto comigo, eu fico em choque, mas n\u00e3o foram s\u00f3 gritos, foram palavras que doeram tanto quanto uma surra. Eu chorei ontem o dia inteiro. Meu filho ouviu tudo n\u00e3o se intrometeu, ok, mas ver como eu estava, era o m\u00ednimo, que lixo de pessoa eu me tornei. Aceitando migalhas de afeto qdo tem. Nunca chorei tanto como ontem e s\u00f3 de me lembrar, estou chorando. N\u00e3o vejo mais motivo pra lutar pra viver. Estou s\u00f3. N\u00e3o tenho amor, amigos, fam\u00edlia, nada, s\u00f3 essa ang\u00fastia e tristeza que me deixam mais no ch\u00e3o ainda. N\u00e3o sei se estarei aqui pra 2024, veremos. T\u00f4 exausta.\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tNovember 30th, 2023\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-chorando-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji chorando\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\tJ\u00e1 sentiu que voc\u00ea n\u00e3o \u00e9 bom o suficiente em nada&#8230;como se voc\u00ea um grande fracasso\n\u00a0\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tNovember 13th 2023\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-triste-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji triste\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\tI need to find a place to live\n\u00a0\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tNovember 10th 2023\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-feliz-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji feliz\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\tHappy to have completed 2 weeks at the gym and kept up the walks. The food is also coming together, a little slower, but it's OK. And finally, I controlled a mild anxiety attack at the gym. God is good at all times!!\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tNovember 5th, 2023\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-chorando-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji chorando\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\tHow can a person feel so much pain like that? Seriously, it feels like I'm being broken! Everything hurts \ud83d\ude2d I think Al\u00ea's gratitude project is so beautiful, but I ask myself: what can I be grateful for, my God? I love my son so much, and every day I get out of bed is for him. But there are days when I want to take all the sleeping pills I have to see if at least while sleeping I don't feel pain. I've always cared so much about people, and now, when it's my turn, the people I cared about and helped are gone. All friends disappeared. If I didn't have my son and my husband, I don't know how I would be surviving. A co-worker of mine was found dead after days at home, no one missed her. What a shitty world. There are good people like Al\u00ea, but they are swallowed up by the different requests, because there is no one else willing to help like that for free. I'm disappointed in the human race! And I am so sad to feel so much pain.\n\u00a0\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tOctober 27th, 2023\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-triste-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji triste\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\tToday I'm not so sad, with PMS and melancholy. Today I realized what I already knew, he thinks I'm lazy for not doing things at home. I was an exemplary housewife, who loved making delicious meals for my husband. After visual impairment and aggravating factors such as depression and fibromyalgia, I was unable to do things as before. At first, he was doing it willingly apparently. But today he showed his real face, I asked if I don't have a hand to boil water on the stove to make pasta and that I don't do anything. FUCK, that was an imaginary punch to my stomach. I knew this would happen sooner or later. It's not because of the loss of his brother this week, he doesn't even talk about him, we're having financial problems, but I've worked so hard while he was looking for a career that made him happy. I write here, because I know that no one will have access to me or judge me and make me feel worse than the rubbish I feel. I don't consider myself a dramatic person, it's just that my life is a drama. And 20 years ago, when I got married, I just wanted affection.\n\u00a0\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tOctober 19th, 2023\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-nervoso-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji zangado\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\tN\u00e3o aguento mais ningu\u00e9m me entende, s\u00f3 tenho cobran\u00e7a de todos os lados. Parece que est\u00e3o pedindo pra eu fazer uma besteira!!! Nunca est\u00e3o satisfeitos com o que eu fa\u00e7o. M\u00e3e, pai, marido&#8230; O \u00fanico que n\u00e3o cobra, mas tbm n\u00e3o liga pra nada \u00e9 meu filho. Eu n\u00e3o quero pena de ningu\u00e9m. S\u00f3 me respeitem. Vou ter que sumir ou surtar? Chegar no meu extremo do neurol\u00f3gico? Pq da dor eu j\u00e1 t\u00f4. Meu eu tenho depress\u00e3o, fibromialgia e defici\u00eancia visual. Eu t\u00f4 tentando porraaaaaa\n\u00a0\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tOctober 18th, 2023\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-feliz-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji feliz\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\tHoje eu estou me sentindo grata, meu pai esta fazendo uns exames p iniciar o tratamento de um tumor e eu estou tendo a oportunidade de acompanhar ele, mesmo sendo exaustivo, e bom poder cuidar dele. Tem dias que n\u00e3o \u00e9 f\u00e1cil, mas seguimos confiantes e com muita f\u00e9.\nQuero ser instrumento de Deus na vida dele e de outras pessoas tbm, ajudando sempre com o que eu conseguir.\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tOctober 10th, 2023\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-feliz-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji feliz\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\t<p>Today I woke up more motivated to take courses and look for a new career.<\/p>\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tOctober 9th, 2023\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-triste-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji triste\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\t<p>I'm lost about my career path.<br \/>O que fazer na vida, cheia de medos&#8230;<\/p>\n\t\t\t<audio class=\"wp-audio-shortcode\" id=\"audio-2698-1\" preload=\"none\" style=\"width: 100%;\" controls=\"controls\"><source type=\"audio\/mpeg\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/10\/pensamento-09-10-23.mp3?_=1\" \/><a href=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/10\/pensamento-09-10-23.mp3\">https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/10\/pensamento-09-10-23.mp3<\/a><\/audio>\n\t\t\t<a href=\"javascript:void(0)\" title=\"Click Here\" target=\"_self\"  data-modal=  \"role=\"button\"\" aria-label=\"Listen to the audio\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\tListen to the audio\n\t\t<\/a>\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tOctober 7th, 2023\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-triste-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji triste\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\t<p>Today I woke up very early, reflective and sad, thinking about how I could let my life reach this point of sadness and heartache. Why do I always feel the need to do other people's wishes above my own? Why do I lower myself to fit into the world of people who don't even remember I exist? Am I that bad? That I haven't even managed to form a true friendship in my 42 years of life? I was so romantic, now I don't even believe in love, in reciprocity, in true friendship like sexy and city, that I would leave anywhere to help or just to be with my friend?! I think I romanticized life too much and, after I saw that it is cruel, evil and that most people are self-interested, it doesn't need to be about money, because I don't even have it, in fact I need it. I always gave everything to everyone, at any cost, now I know why, I wanted to be accepted. How lonely! I don't feel like anyone understands the pain and sadness I feel from the various sexual abuses I suffered as a child. They don't understand, nor do they care, they just know how to say \u201cyou have to get over it\u201d!!But I didn't even remember all the abuse, and after I got depressed about 15 years ago, I remembered it in therapy. Embrace my pain? How do you do this? Today I am compulsive about food, to try to alleviate my pain. In a world with millions of people and I feel alone! What a contrast. I miss my independence, when I was able to see, I worked at the hospital and did everything by myself. How stupid I was 23 years ago when I decided to give my boyfriend a second chance when I was dating him. Afraid of being alone. My patients valued me more than many people I know.<\/p>\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tOctober 6th, 2023\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-chorando-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji chorando\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\t'm feeling like crap, I try to do everything to please my husband; we do live well for a few days, then, if anything happens out of the ordinary at home, he blames me. He throws all his frustrations on me, and I still feel evil and guilty. In fact, today I even tried to tell him that he had to always treat me with love and care, love me like his own body, I told him to take a deep breath, he said he couldn't, otherwise he would get sick. So can I continue with depression and fibromyalgia? All this due to financial difficulties. I\u2019d like to take own my life. When he hurts me emotionally, it hurts more than the pain of fibromyalgia. He prefers to be angry, rather than have a calm atmosphere and me with controlled pain. It is tiring, my God!\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tOctober 4th, 2023\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-chorando-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji chorando\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\tToday I'm in more pain than on other days, tired of hearing so many suggestions for my life. Dude, come live in my place!! If I diet to cut out inflammatory foods, it doesn't work for me. No one knows how much effort I make to get out of bed. Or the fight against daily suicidal thoughts. I'm too tired. I'm grateful to God for my son's health, because my husband is worse than me, depressed and fighting against himself alone and dumps everything on me, because he has no friends. I'm at the point of freaking out.\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tSeptember 29th, 2023\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-chorando-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji chorando\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\t<p>I will take my life. I can't stand feeling pain anymore. No human being should have to endure so much, my God. This fibromyalgia and depression thing is consuming me, but no one is seeing it or pretends not to see it. My father-in-law wasn't supposed to die at the beginning of the year out of nowhere. Now, I don't have the courage to do anything that will harm my husband, he is suffering too much today. But I was already in pain, before he died! I can't take it anymore.<\/p>\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tSeptember 27th, 2023\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-triste-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji triste\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\t<p>Today my husband shouted at me and he locked his teeth, as if he was going to attack a person. I was so scared. We have been married for almost 20 years and together for about 25; he is rude, he talks loudly, he hurts me sometimes, but he takes care of me, he is the one who takes care of me because of the illnesses I have... but I sometimes I wonder if It's worth living like this. My son heard the way his father arrived today and said stay calm mom, he's nervous. I raised a man, not a brat who will see women being disrespected and move on. I'm doubly disappointed. I'm actually disappointed with everything. I always strive to be a good person, but when I realize it, I'm ignored by friends, or mistreated by my husband. I feel pressured by my mother. I'm tired of everything.<\/p>\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tSeptember 19th, 2023\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-triste-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji triste\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\tVivi uma vida aprendendo a me defender, ontem meu chefe quis me humilhar na frente de muitas pessoas, s\u00f3 para mostrar quem manda . Infelizmente ou felizmente n\u00e3o consigo baixar para certas coisas ditas . Fui chamada de ladra por n\u00e3o ter passagem para ir ao trabalho, que eu estava roubando a empresa. Oi como assim ?! A obriga\u00e7\u00e3o do empregador \u00e9 pagar a passagem ao empregado . N\u00e3o fui trabalhar e estava roubando o dia ?! Se eu n\u00e3o tinha dinheiro para ir . Fui chamada de burra tamb\u00e9m &#8230; falei para o mesmo ir ent\u00e3o fazer o meu trabalho . Estou chateada que tenha chego a tal ponto . Mas isso serve para mostrar que precisamos desapegar de certos ciclos .\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tSeptember 15th, 2023\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-triste-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji triste\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\tI am feeling that a 5-year marriage is turning into just friendship, I feel bad about ending it because of our son, my mother who lives far away and is not a pillar that could be counted on, my father lives on the other side of Brazil. I'm simply living for my son, I don't know what to do! I am afraid of making mistakes, but it's been a while since it became friendship! I'm extremely sad because I noticed this and I agree! I wanted my son to have the family that I didn't have and that destroys me.\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tAugust 30th, 2023\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-chorando-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji chorando\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\t<p class=\"translation-block\">I'm thinking about taking my own life because I was so stupid\nI ended my life and I'm ending my children's lives. I took money from a loan shark\nI closed my salon and got a snowball of debts with a loan shark. I'm being charged and threatening every day. That I'm thinking of taking my own life.<\/p>\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tAugust 29th, 2023\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-chorando-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji chorando\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\t<p>If one day I end up taking my own life, it's not my husband's fault, but the choice I made more than 20 years ago. I traded love for passion and that was the worst decision of my life. Even my son doesn't respect me because I'm so silly. I am deceitful, and vulnerable. Anyone makes me feel like a fool. I am extremely sorry for getting married because I was afraid of being alone, since I let my happiness slip away, not even that, I kicked the person who loved me anyway. Now, I only see his happiness and hope for him to be happier and happier with the beautiful family they formed. I was the one who made the mistake., But he always visits me in my dreams \ud83d\udc94\ud83d\udc94<\/p>\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tAugust 29th, 2023\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-chorando-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji chorando\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\t<p>Today I am so disappointed with my husband, the day before yesterday he told me rudely that I was overweight and I told him that I was upset at night. He started screaming saying that was not what he said. So I went to write about it on whatsapp, which is for myself and without paying attention I wrote to him. From then on he doesn't talk to me, he slept on the sofa, I told him I didn't write to him, just for me but I typed it in the wrong place. Despite being married for almost 20 years, this punishment of silence hurts me a lot, it triggers severe pain and crises of sadness and fibromyalgia. It's solve anything if I talk to him. He never feels guilty of anything. I'm really tired. I don't care if he goes out, if he stays at home, in fact I just live with him. I wasn't raised in a perfect home, but my parents never stopped talking to each other, and that bothers me a lot. He knows about my struggle with my suicidal mind and thoughts, but he punishes me.<\/p>\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tAugust 1st, 2023\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-festa-rosa.png\" alt=\"\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\t<p>Bacon<\/p>\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tJuly 25th, 2023\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-chorando-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji chorando\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\t<p>I wasn't, but now I'm contemplating suicide, ending the suffering of fibromyalgia, depression and low vision. Am I extremely \u201ccharged\u201d (receiving a lot responsibilities) even when I'm sick? Why? Why don't they leave me alone? It feels like they're pushing me over the cliff.<\/p>\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tJuly 19th, 2023\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-feliz-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji feliz\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\t<p>I want to dedicate a few words to you, someone who, despite being geographically distant, has a very special place in my heart. It's amazing how technology has allowed us to connect with such wonderful people, and you are living proof of that.<\/p>\n<p>In this vast digital world, your presence shines like a shining star. You are a generous soul, always ready to reach out and help everyone who crosses your path. Your dedication to making a difference in people's lives is truly admirable.<\/p>\n<p>Through your words and actions, you build bridges of understanding and empathy, creating a welcoming and inspiring environment for everyone. Your compassionate heart is able to sense the needs of others, even from a distance, and that is a rare gift.<\/p>\n<p>No matter what circumstances we find ourselves in, your ability to uplift people's lives is remarkable. Whether it's through wise advice, words of encouragement or simple gestures of kindness, you leave a positive mark on so many people's lives.<\/p>\n<p>Our friendship is an example of how genuine and meaningful internet connections can be. Even without meeting in person, I feel a deep and heartfelt connection with you. Their experiences, stories and values \u200b\u200benrich my life in a unique way.<\/p>\n<p>Thank you for being that special person, whose virtual presence brightens my day. Know that you are loved and valued, not just by me, but by everyone privileged to share even a moment with you.<\/p>\n<p>May our friendship continue to grow and flourish, breaking through virtual barriers and remaining strong and true. I will always be here to support you as I know I can count on you.<\/p>\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tJuly 13th, 2023\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-chorando-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji chorando\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\t\u00a0\n\ud83d\ude2d\ud83d\ude2d\ud83d\ude2d\ud83d\ude2d\ud83d\ude2d\ud83d\ude2d\ud83d\ude2d\ud83d\ude2d\ud83d\ude2d\ud83d\ude2d\ud83d\ude2d\ud83d\ude2d\ud83d\ude2d\ud83d\ude2d\ud83d\ude2d\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tJuly 12th, 2023\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-chorando-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji chorando\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\t<p>I'm feeling like crap, how can someone who says they love you treat you so badly? For God's sake, we're Christians, he ignores me, he doesn't talk to me, it's like I don't even exist. It's slowly killing me. When the suicidal thoughts subside, he turns his face on after the discussion we have. I'm tired of being treated badly. I'm leaving, running away somewhere where no one can find me. I know I'm not as affectionate as I used to be, but I've learned his ways, he's not affectionate at all, he doesn't caress me, wow, I chose badly. Living with him and my son who only cares about themselves seems like torture. I'm tired of asking for affection. If his family isn't affectionate, he should learn how to be, to be a good husband, but he doesn't care about being a good husband. I have depression and I think it's his fault that he made me cry so much even during pregnancy. And a degenerative eye disease that I also think is his fault, because I cried a lot because of his cruelty and I itched eyes. My God do I deserve this? I'm jealous of couples who get along, because my marriage is a sham. I should have stayed alone and if one day I separate from him I never want to know about a relationship in my life. I'm so sad that it feels like my heart is breaking. He's toxic, he deceives my son or whatever because my son just wants to please him. How much disappointment in my life. I was raped as a child, and I get a horrible husband. It looks like something out of a movie. I'm not that bad to deserve to be so mistreated. I'm going to kill myself to end my pain and make it clear that it's his fault.<\/p>\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tJuly 11th, 2023\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-chorando-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji chorando\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\t<p>I'm feeling like crap. I had an argument with my husband and he always comes out as right and I'm wrong, mainly because I'm undergoing psychiatric treatment. Sometimes I think about taking my life or running away from home. My son also thinks that his father is right, he treats me well, but if his father fights with me, he doesn't say anything, he sees me crying and doesn't say anything. If I saw my mother crying I would always be by her side. I could be wrong, but I've never felt so lonely and treated like a ghost. Not talking kills me. But they live normally. If I died, they would cry. What a rage of this depression. Everything I say, my husband will have to say, that I've been depressed for 12 years and I can't understand what I'm doing. And the worst thing is that I can't see to run away at dawn, I'd disappear into the world. They call me crazy already. It\u2019s an adult disappointment. My mother did not protect me in childhood and I was raped several times by my older brother and my cousin. I try to be positive, but with a husband and kids treating me like crazy. I'm going to collect money and disappear, no one will ever see me again. Sometimes the screams hurt more than a slap. I'm extremely tired.<\/p>\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tJuly 1st, 2023\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-feliz-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji feliz\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\tI've been going through difficult times, but I have faith that it will get better! God is wonderful and I believe in his miracles.\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tJune 20th, 2023\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-triste-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji triste\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\tHoje me encontro bem triste, por achar que nada me acontece, parece que n\u00e3o sa\u00ed do lugar, pelo simples fato de que n\u00e3o cheguei ainda aonde eu quero, isso me deixa completamente triste \u00e9 como se eu t\u00f4 esse vendo todo mundo l\u00e1 na frente, e eu aqui atr\u00e1s &#8220;parada&#8221;. T\u00f4 fazendo o que posso para trabalhar no que amo, mas sinto que t\u00f4 me procrestinando a minha vida.\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tMay 27th, 2023\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-triste-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji triste\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\t<p>Hoje estou triste, pois a vida tem me tirado dos trilhos, com falecimentos familiar, e muitas saudades da minha m\u00e3e que mora muito longe&#8230;<\/p>\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tMay 22nd, 2023\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-chorando-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji chorando\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\t<p>Today I'm extremely hurt with my husband, he got angry for something stupid yesterday and I cried all night, I'm so sad that I have a migraine and fibromyalgia pain, the worst thing is that he wasn't supposed to be mad at me, no, I didn't do anything wrong, but every day that passes I feel like I'm not part of this world. I think a lot about taking my life. But I wanted him to feel the pain he makes me feel. I don't know if he would be sad, but I would write a letter blaming him. I'm so affectionate and he gives me back rudeness, let's see who is the strongest.<\/p>\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tMay 20th, 2023\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-triste-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji triste\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\t<p>Hoje eu t\u00f4 cansada e procrastinando todas as atividades &#8230;meus pensamentos me cansam ,acredito&#8230; Sofro e fico feliz por coisas que ainda nem aconteceram&#8230;enfim acho que isso que tem feito eu n descansar como deveria e qndo amanhece e tenho minhas obriga\u00e7\u00f5es a se fazer ,fico empurrando com a barriga&#8230;enfim<\/p>\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tMay 8th, 2023\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-triste-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji triste\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\t<p>On how to pay my debts, there are not many but I am concerned because it is the name of the people that are at stake<\/p>\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tMay 1st, 2023\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-feliz-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji feliz\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\t<p>Distribute positive words!<\/p>\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tApril 15, 2023\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-chorando-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji chorando\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\t<p>Today I don't know what to feel. I'm in so much pain because of fibromyalgia that I don't know what to think and a migraine that sometimes I ask God for forgiveness for the negative thoughts. I hope this crisis passes soon!<\/p>\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tMarch 25th, 2023\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-festa-rosa.png\" alt=\"\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\t<p>Thank God, I live well today, but I already had a lot of problems with self-esteem, mainly because of relationships, where my ex used to put me down and did a lot of things and I thought I would NEVER get anything better, but THANK to God, today I live well, sometimes with relapses of fear and insecurity, but it soon passes. I fulfilled a dream after 9 years that I really didn't think was possible and I GOT MARRIED, with a party and everything! Today I live with someone who not only loves me, but who encourages me to live my best.<\/p>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/07\/muraldopensamento25-07.jpg\" alt=\"muraldopensamento25-07\" itemprop=\"image\" height=\"400\" width=\"600\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/07\/muraldopensamento25-07.jpg 600w, https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/07\/muraldopensamento25-07-300x200.jpg 300w, https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/07\/muraldopensamento25-07-18x12.jpg 18w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 600px) 100vw, 600px\" title=\"muraldopensamento25-07\" onerror=\"this.style.display='none'\"  \/>\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tMarch 24, 2023\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-triste-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji triste\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\t<p>Terrible, wanting to give up on everything and everyone.<\/p>\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tMarch 16, 2023\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-triste-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji triste\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\t<p>I'm very tired, I didn't sleep well, I don't know why, I can't work out or keep up with my plans.<\/p>\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tMarch 16, 2023\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-triste-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji triste\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\t<p>I'm very sentimental today.  Things don't happen the way we want and that's really annoying.<\/p>\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tMarch 06, 2023\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-chorando-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji chorando\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\t<p>Today I have an immense desire to give up everything and end my life. There's something wrong with me, but no one notices it; they think I'm taking the medication and I'm fine, but I've never been worse.  It is an endless sadness.<\/p>\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tMarch 04, 2023\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-chorando-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji chorando\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\t<p>I'm really down, I started to take strong mediation, but the suicidal thoughts don't leave my head.  I have depression and fibromyalgia.  I feel so much pain, but so much pain, that man I want to disappear without a trace or throw myself in front of any car.  #tiredofeverything<\/p>\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tMarch 02, 2023\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-triste-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji triste\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\t<p>I feel unmotivated, without a purpose. I see other people's lives going on and mine is stagnant.<br \/>I can't even help financially at home; \nseeing my children want things and not being able to afford.\n At least offer them the basics \ud83d\ude14 it is frustrating. The people who always helped me unfortunately already passed away, which were my parents \ud83d\ude14.  I caught my mother-in-law talking bad about me on whatsapp.  About me not being able to handle heavy lifting.  At the end of last year she felt sick working in the fields, and I was the one who stayed with her, the unemployed woman \ud83d\ude14 these things hurt so much.  When I heard that, I didn't even have the strength to leave \ud83d\ude14 I only cried.<\/p>\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tMarch 02, 2023\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-feliz-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji feliz\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\t<p>I'm hoping to improve the quality of my life.<\/p>\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tFebruary 28, 2023\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-triste-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji triste\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\t<p>Why didn\u2019t anything work for me?<br \/>I ask this question almost every day.<\/p>\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tFebruary 22, 2023\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-triste-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji triste\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\t<p>Sometimes I want to disappear or not even exist, but that doesn't solve it and that's why I continue<\/p>\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tFebruary 10, 2023\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-chorando-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji chorando\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\t<p>I wanted so badly to explain myself, to have a conversation with Evelyn about the day her mother stayed at my house. For her to hear my side. It hurts me to this day, because I really like her and knowing that someone you like blocked you for only hearing one side of the story is terrible. I feel very bad, very bad.<\/p>\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tFebruary 10, 2023\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-feliz-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji feliz\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\t<p>I'm fine, but sometimes a strange feeling of anguish, or emptiness, throbs in me, I don't know what it is, but I try to cheer myself up with music, I try to concentrate on what I need to do daily, and I also try to connect with God! I believe that talking to God calms me down. That's it for today, thank you and have a nice day!<\/p>\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tFebruary 10, 2023\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-feliz-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji feliz\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\t<p>Super happy, because I managed to drive on the highway today, after an anxiety attack due to the fear of driving. But it all worked out \u2764<\/p>\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tFebruary 09, 2023\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-feliz-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji feliz\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\t<p>Today I'm much better, thank God. I had panic attacks and anxiety for 10 days, a lot of horrible shortness of breath.\u00a0<\/p>\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tFebruary 09, 2023\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-feliz-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji feliz\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\t<p class=\"translation-block\">I'm fine. Thank to God, job, family, health.\nYesterday I had a small surgery; I\u2019m recovering well, thank God \ud83d\ude4f<\/p>\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tFebruary 09, 2023\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-feliz-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji feliz\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\t<p>I have a HUGE desire to return to New York very urgently.<\/p>\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tFebruary 09, 2023\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-festa-rosa.png\" alt=\"\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\t<p class=\"translation-block\">I'm happy with my new job. I\u2019m hard on myself about everything!!\nI do my best.<\/p>\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tFebruary 09, 2023\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-triste-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji triste\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\t<p>Estou pensando q o tempo est\u00e1 voando e eu estou, estagnada na vida&#8230;<\/p>\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tFebruary 09, 2023\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-feliz-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji feliz\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\t<p>Life is fleeting and we have to enjoy every moment and always learn new things!!!<\/p>\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tFebruary 09, 2023\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t<img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/emoji-feliz-rosa.png\" alt=\"emoji feliz\" title=\"\" itemprop=\"image\"\/>\n\t\t\t\t<p>Gratid\u00e3o por ter a Lisa na minha vida, Lisa \u00e9 daquelas pessoas que ilumina a vida de outras pessoas&#8230;<\/p>\n\t<h3>\n\t\t\t\tFebruary 09, 2023\n\t\t\t<\/h3>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/expressao-de-pensamento1.jpg\" alt=\"emoji cora\u00e7\u00e3o partido\" itemprop=\"image\" height=\"280\" width=\"287\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/expressao-de-pensamento1.jpg 287w, https:\/\/www.aleyork.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/expressao-de-pensamento1-12x12.jpg 12w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 287px) 100vw, 287px\" title=\"expressao-de-pensamento1\" onerror=\"this.style.display='none'\"  \/>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Seja bem-vinda (o) ao Mural dos Pensamentos Espa\u00e7o criado para voc\u00ea compartilhar os seus pensamentos sem nenhum julgamento. Sinta-se a vontade para expressar o que voc\u00ea est\u00e1 sentindo. A maioria das pessoas preferem compartilhar s\u00f3 os pensamentos bons e tentam n\u00e3o expor o que realmente est\u00e3o pensando. 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